Wednesday, March 28, 2007
It's already been a week...
Has it really been a week already? A whole week of us being a family of four?
I still can't believe it...
These past week, during the few moments I’d get to myself, I’d sit down and try to write something… It would normally be a paragraph or so. And I’d fully intend to continue on that thought when I get back to it again, but when I do, I’m usually in a totally different emotional/physical state. I can’t seem to stay on one wave long enough to complete an entry. It has been a real emotional roller coaster. Augmented by lack of sleep, pain killers and, naturally, the new baby in the house.
Who, by the way, rules…
One day I was going to write about lack of sleep. The absolute total exhaustion you feel after not sleeping at all for two days (for I really haven’t mastered the art of sleeping in a hospital) and how the world seems bleak through the groggy eyes… But then the baby slept a few stretches of almost four hours and I caught up, and none of that rang true anymore…
Another major issue was me missing my toddler. Which still is an issue. I’m just a bit more rational now.
The thing is, up until the night I got induce I’ve never spent a night without the kiddo. Not a single one. I haven’t even been away from him for longer than a few hours. And then I had to spend three nights in a row without him. The day I came back home, I was so miserable that even though my husband thought it would be better for him to stay with his grandparents for one more night so we could rest – I just couldn’t do it. I broke into miserable pathetic crying mess and told the hubs that the kid is staying home, even if I’m never sleeping again. And so we had to balance both kids the very first night. But it was worth it…
In a way I missed my toddler throughout this pregnancy. Cause I was sick most of the time, I couldn’t take him places, I couldn’t play games with him. Somehow all these thoughts came crushing on me this week. I just want him home… With me… Yes, I’m having serious attachment issues…
But most of the time I’ve been happy. I’ve always wanted kids. The other night we decided to bathe the newborn. The toddler was there to help. Between trying to grab the showerhead, throwing duckies at the baby and exploring the workings of the toilet, it was a very intense experience, to say the least. The kind that makes you think “what did I get myself into?” But then the toddler got his bath too. And as my husband was carrying him out, a happy/giggling head sticking out of the towel, I was walking in the opposite direction with the newborn in my arms. And we passed the big mirror… We both stalled, staring at the reflection. Cause there, looking back at us was a real family.
You know that feeling when you realize that your dreams came true? I didn’t know it before. But now I do. I have everything I’ve ever wanted. And if I ever forget it, I always have that big mirror…
Friday, March 23, 2007
Introduction…
Kiddo Junior has finally arrived! He checked in on Tuesday afternoon (March 20th) at 8 pounds 4 ounces and a whole of 54 cm long…
Mommy and Daddy are very happy and are now busy trying to figure out the art of juggling two kids… So far sleep doesn’t seem to be an option :-)
I’d tell you the birthing story, but then it’s all kind of blur at the moment... Let’s just say the highlights included a very horrible behavior on my part, resulting from having to wait for a room (cause it was a busy day in baby-arriving land), and not having drugs. And parts of that behavior involved screaming, swearing that I’ll never do it again, biting my husband (yup, not kidding here), and having about five people trying to restrain me… 
On the up side, the whole thing was relatively short, and once I eventually got the drugs it was smooth sailing… (Honestly, what’s up with the whole anti-epidural campaign? I’ll never get that…) And the pushing stage took less than 10 minutes! Wow! I mean, my last one was HOURS…
And now I’m a proud mommy of two boys!
I am still having a hard time believing it…
And kiddo number one seems to be on the track at being the perfect brother. He’s absolutely fascinated with the baby. And is not getting tired at all from pointing out over and over that baby has a nose… And that baby is crying… And that baby should play with the monster trucks (Help!).
What can I say – my kids are perfect :-)
And I'm sure one day I'll sleep again...
Friday, March 16, 2007
Nope... they didn't induce me...
Well, guess what… I went to see the doctor today… And was told that they won’t do anything till Monday…
Monday…
I barely made it out of her office without bursting into tears right there.
It’s been such an emotional roller coaster. Going everywhere with the hospital bag… Expecting something any minute… And still nothing…
I don’t even know what to write, cause I’m a mental/emotional mess. For some reason I really thought this kid would come early, like his brother. Instead he’s a week late already.
I know it’s not the end of the world. I just wasn’t planning on it. And I didn’t even get enough anti-nausea drugs to last that long. And didn’t bulk up on the required patience…
So here I am. On my tenth month. Still puking my brains out every morning. And sometimes afternoon. And sometimes night.
And yes, I’m still here.
And I can’t believe it either…
I must be one heck of a comfortable residence…
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Still here...
Still here... Totally loosing my mind...
But at least I have a deadline now. My doctor said that if nothing happens, I'll be induced on Friday...
All the suspense...
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Isn't it about time?
All I can say is… WHY AM I STILL HERE? Kiddo number one had already popped out by this time. After that over-24-hour-marathon labour. Aren’t second babies supposed to come sooner? Isn’t that what I was told?
But kiddo number two seems to be in no rush what so ever…
Seriously.
It’s been nine months. Time to face the world…
Come on, kiddo… Mommy’s totally loosing her cool here...
Sunday, March 04, 2007
A meme...
I’ve been tagged for a meme! Yeh! One less post topic to think about… :-)
The invitation came from the wonderful Gerda of “Dinner for One” fame…
And the meme is about 6 weird food facts about me… So, without further ado…
1. My favourite fruit/veg/food item is… tomato! Yup… I love tomatoes beyond belief and can easily eat them whole like other people eat peaches or apples. And I’ll take cherry tomatoes over candy any time :-)
2. When I was a little kid (and up until I turned 11) I was the pickiest eater ever. But then the summer I turned 11 I went to a special summer camp for a month… While the camp itself was pretty good, the food was more of a “camp Krusty” variety. Not only was it not enough and not very tasty, but the big kids had a knack of obtaining even the foods that I did want to eat… I’ve never been THAT picky since…
3. Another obsession I had as a kid (and to a certain extent still do) was having a separate plate for everything I was eating. I couldn’t stand the idea of foods intermixing. If I absolutely had to eat from the same plate, I would do my best to separate the foods, and then eat them in some kind of special order, the specialness of which would be decided on the spot.
4. I absolutely cannot stand cooked oats. Be they in any shape or form with any amount of jam or honey added. Stems from having to have the “nutritious” porridge practically every day as a kid. (My parents were old fashioned that way…). Even the smell of oatmeal makes me gag and run from the room…
5. Up until I reached the age of 18 I’ve only had fast-food (MacDonalds) maybe 3 times in my life. And only’ve been to a couple of restaurants. It was all home food. But then I met my future husband who introduced me to the concept of going out, and I’ve been a restaurant addict ever since. So blame it on the hubs :-)
6. I love apple sauce. The one that comes in baby-jars… Even before I had a baby I used to stock up on those tiny jars and bring them to work, like normal people do yogurt. And yes, I did get weird looks from people. Especially when it was accompanied by a whole tomato :-) (see point 1).
Let’s see now… I think I’m supposed to tag someone too… Ok then…
I’m tagging Leslie and Anali :-)
Friday, March 02, 2007
Snowed in...
We are snowed in… It’s been a blizzard all day, and now it’s frozen rain (freezing rain?)… I was so panicked about staying home alone, that I’ve convinced my husband to stay home… Just in case…
There is something unnerving in knowing that the hospital is in a whole other city. In a traffic like today’s it would’ve taken hours to get there. Somehow delivering in the middle of a highway in a snow-buried car is not my idea of fun… Can you tell I’ve been freaking out all day?
And now it’s freezing rain outside… And everything is been covered in a shiny slippery coat of ice…
Think good thoughts… think good thoughts…
Stop freaking out!
Now!
Look what I can do with mega-blocks! 
Yeah, a new previously undiscovered talent has emerged…
And now excuse me while I’m trying to calm down and find that happy place… Where it’s nice and sunny and there is no traffic…
